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Can't Talk To a Psycho Like a Normal Human Being Ok, I am totally freaking myself out. I have been the biggest spastic idiot the last few days. Justin had been gone for the week, and I had this amazing, decadent time just hanging out with friends and feeling younger and more alive than I have in ages. He got home yesterday, and I am turning into some sort of Girl, Interrupted cliche. I am just so anxious and depressed today. I felt this way yesterday too. I am trying to be honest with Justin about everything that I am feeling, and then I feel like a selfish brat, so then I apologize and state that I don't know what I am thinking wanting a separation. Then, in the next instant, I realize that isn't true either- that I feel trapped, suffocated, etc. I feel horrible for what I am putting him through. I just want to be alone, all alone, for as long as I can handle it. I want to cry and cry and cry. I think I want to make him hate me or something, and then in the next instant I feel like I am committing emotional suicide. What the fuck is wrong with me? Does anyone have a helpful opinion on this? said the Dread Pirate Ro at 1:38 PM on March 06, 2004 Aarrgh! 0 scurvy dogs said "Ahoy, matey!"
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